#i can’t ever have that again
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i had an incredibly vivid dream months ago that i still haven’t gotten over.
i was lying in a bed, not like the one i have but i knew it was my bed. there was a window behind me with white sheer curtains and i had just woken up. i turned my head to my right, and she was next to me. it was a face i did not recognize, but i knew that she was home to me. she was made for me. i remember she had blonde hair, and the sun in it was the most beautiful sight. she smiled, and held my face, and she kissed me. i have never been kissed before, but in the dream it was so nice. it just felt right. i could seriously feel her lips on mine, her hands on my face, the sheets against my skin.
then i woke up. and she was all i thought about for the rest of the day. and now, every time i think about what a real kiss would feel like, i imagine what i felt that night. i don’t know what it was, because in dreams i can’t normally feel things. but i felt her.
#dreams#dream (not the mcyt or the sandman)#lesbian#wlw#sapphic#romanticize#romanticism#i’m actually unlabelled rn#i think i love her#i hate dreams#i can’t ever have that again
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FNAF movie Mike and Michael compare nightmares,,
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#mike schmidt#michael afton#fnaf nightmare#fnaf#fnaf movie#fnaf 4#fnaf fanart#five nights at freddy's#Michael once again sharing horrors beyond human comprehension to Mike 💜#tbh it’s been a second since I’ve last had a comic focusing on these two#it’s interesting how both have a deep connection to dreams in particular#though once again Michael is winning on how much worse his vers are#in the Survival logbook Michael does draw nightmare Fredbear#so those are his nightmares this guy can’t even get a break in sleep#I actually wonder if we’ll ever seen any of the nightmares in live action least for a dream sequence
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see because the most insane thing about malevolent part 1 is the song that plays right as it starts:
“i can’t forget the night i met you. that’s all i’m dreaming of. and you call it madness, ah, but i call it love.”
and then it immediately cuts to when arthur wakes up and starts talking to john. i’m so.
#listening to this again when i’m completely caught up and have been for a while is going to devastate me#they are something we can’t even begin to comprehend#they’ve come so far#malevolent#malevolent podcast#john doe#john doe malevolent#arthur lester#jarthur#(kinda)#i don’t ship them romantically really#i’m just here for whatever fucked up codependent bond they’ve formed#they have so many issues#they are The QPR Ever to me
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Mangograft! (PHIGHTING!)
Would one care for a mango? (It’s a bomb /j)
ANYWAYS I forgot to post this so here it is! Live laugh Mangograft this was a suggestion from a friend since I was bored :3
Also here’s this gem too no im not giving context
#I’m finally starting to neglect my poor tumblr followers less#YOU GUYSCARE FINALLY BEING FED WOWWWWWWW!!!!!!#More art soon also as well! I have a few other things planned that I’m working on at the moment and then a possible PMV idea if I ever get#To it…….#The second thing was made at like 2 in the morning by the way after I was already running on low sleep 💔#Speaking of low sleep also SCHOOL HAS STARTED BACK UP FOR ME !#2 ap classes and the rest basically all honors with no specials is kicking my ASS and it’s only the third day but I mean at least my grades#Are doing good so far and I’m finally around people again >:3!#Cosplay related content is also REAAAAALLLLYYYY gonna kick up as well + tradjtonal projects I can’t wait for as well#For now though digital art is gonna stick to a pretty meh pace but I’m still cooking that’s for sure! So be prepared!#…. Perspective is really hard by the way this piece took 10 hours EXACTLY#Oh my GOD#art#phighting!#artists on tumblr#digital art#phighting art#roblox phighting#phighting roblox#phighting fanart#roblox#phighting#phighting! roblox#phighting! oc#phighting! art#phighting! subspace#subspace tripmine#phighting subspace#phighting oc#biograft phighting
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Her kisses were all-consuming and he felt his heart surrendering to her with every gentle nip, losing himself in the feeling of her. Her soft body pressing tightly against him, her breathy moans, the soft hair at the nape of her neck, her taste.
When Eloise finally pulled away from him, breathing heavily as their foreheads pressed together and their eyes locked, Sebastian was dazed and content and...happy. Merlin, he was so happy. Her cheeks were bright pink, and her lips were swollen and red and smiling up at him. His breath caught in his throat - he didn't think he had ever seen anything so beautiful as Eloise in that moment. Sebastian knew that he was grinning like a fool but he didn't care.
Happiness was bubbling up in his body and he was leaning down to kiss her again because it would never be enough and -
She started coughing.
Eloise abruptly pulled away from him, covering her mouth with her sleeve as she doubled over. A terrible, horrible, familiar wracking cough that Sebastian never thought he would hear again.
When she pulled her sleeve away from her mouth, there were little flecks of blood.
They both looked at each other in horror.
"Eloise..." he started, his voice cracking. The balloon of happiness that had filled him burst and he felt himself crashing back to the grim reality that had been his life for too long. Arms hanging limply at his sides. When his voice came out again, it was a whisper. He could barely choke the words out.
"...what did you do?"
their first kiss😇😇😇
#sorry guys I can’t help but be an evil gremlin🫡😔🙏#idk if I’ve drawn them kissing before but this was fun!!!!🥹 so I’ll do it again💓💓💓#do you like when I add these little excerpts from my writing??#also😫#I was thinking of rewriting my fic from the beginning is that like…okay? normal? something people do????#it was the first thing I’ve ever written and I’m just pantsing the whole thing#I like the plot and basically all of it SO MUCH😫#but I feel like my writing’s improved since I started and I have a better idea of who Eloise is#so I want to rewrite and tweak things a bit so it’s BETTER#idk😫😫 maybe I’ll just keep going forward with my disaster😇#anyways hope you enjoyed this KISS😙😙😙💓💓💓🥹🥹🥹#😇😇#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#sebastian sallow#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow fanart
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They don’t know how to sleep without each other anymore
#I love the hc that after they sleep together once#they can’t sleep without each other ever again#they feel safer in each other’s arms and have a better time with their nightmares#once they come back from mission salon or away from each other they end up spending the day just sleeping#holding each other hella tight#ghostsoap#soap ghost#cod mw2
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how long the jojos last during no nut november
i stole borrowed this idea from @garoujo i loved their jujutsu kaisen version of this and just KNEW i had to make my own!!!
✰nothing too crazy but it’s still kinda nsfw, mentions of sex and all that, blah blah minors dni
jonathan: december 1st - being the most innocent of the jojos he is bound to last the entire month. his sex drive is not as high as most men his age plus he always enjoys a good challenge. he asked you multiple times if you were willing to do this and once you agreed it was set in stone. the hardest part of the month is hearing you beg for his cock night after night, having to deny you for so long takes a toll on him. jojo wants nothing more than to fill you up with cock,pumping you full as you cry for more ;) both of you get this wish when the month is over
joseph: november 2nd- when he first heard the idea he was thrilled. he was convinced he could coax you into failing within the first week,breaking you down with subtle touches and deep kisses. alas this was only a plan. when he woke up the next day with a bad case of morning wood he had to relieve it one way or another. joseph tried for maybe ten minutes to ignore it but gave up as soon as he took a good look at you sleeping form. oh god how could he resist you when you look so pretty.
caesar zeppelli: november 4th- at first he was totally opposed to the challenge, thinking it only to be juvenile and crude. but when he was made aware of joseph participating he was more than willing to take part in the game. caesar liked to think he had the self control of a god, able to resist even the most beautiful of temptresses. it turns out he’s not as strong as he had once thought. all it took was the sight of you stepping out of the shower and he was out. he won’t let you bring it up around jojo though, he may have lost the competition but he still has his pride.
jotaro kujo: november 27th- oh he was so close to lasting the entire month. jotaro is able to control himself to an insane amount. it didn’t matter how much you teased him, small touches, dirty things whispered in his ear, cute little outfits jotaro held on strong. one day you dropped by his office to give him a stack of papers he forgot at home and for some reason that broke him. you were just so kind and thoughtful how could he not reward you. he took you right there on his desk, loving the way your ass bounces as he pounds into you. jojo is a bit disappointed he didn’t last the entire month but you’re quick to comfort him and praise him for how well he did.
noriaki kakyoin: november 18th- the man is a gamer at heart so you best believe he’s down to participate in a boss fight of sorts. he takes the challenge the most seriously out of all the guys. he will not give in to absolutely anything. wellll that is until you kneel down between his legs while he was in the middle of a game and gave him those eyes. he didn’t want to lose he really didn’t but fuck you were just so beautiful knelt before him. after a round or two he admitted to tapping out of the competition. he’s super chill about losing and makes up for the lost time for the rest of the month ;)
josuke higashikata: november 15th- okayasu gave him the idea and he was so excited to pitch it to you. he was always the competitive type so he was more than happy to compete. for the next two weeks he kept his distance not wanting to slip up. but alas he is still a teenage boy and he has his needs. one particular day while embracing you he felt his cock twitch and he knew that was it. next thing you knew you were being dragged into an empty closed and fucked out of your mind. despite not lasting the whole month you have to commend him for keeping it together for as long as he did.
okuyasu nijimura: november 11th- he over heard the concept of the game from a few of his fellow classmates during math and figured it was worth a try. not like he anything better going on. the first week was smooth sailing for him, he had not one impure thought the entire time. but alas he is still a teenage boy the hormones are bound to start raging eventually. it wasn’t too hard to break the boy down. you bent down to pick something up off the floor and he just couldn’t help it anymore. all it took was a few thrusts and he was done. unlike other guys his age he wasn’t embarrassed that he failed the challenge. honestly he’s kind of glad he didn’t make it. now he doesn’t have to hold himself back any longer.
giorno giovanna: november 30th- the only reason he lasted as long as he did is because he’s a busy man, running the mafia and such. he didn’t have the time to worry about rearranging your guts while drugs plagued the streets of italy. don’t you worry though, once he manages to get a day off he will make sure your needs are properly taken care of.
mista guido: november 1st-the amount of self control this man has is close to none. if he starts to feel horny no matter where or when he will indulge in his urges. when you bring up the idea of no nut november to him he agrees in the beginning. but after a few hours he decides he doesn’t want to do it anymore. this man is fucking whipped and he is proud of it.
#jojo has ruined me#i can’t have normal thoughts ever again#not that i had them to begin with#i enjoy having jojo thots#jjba smut#jojos bizzare adventure#jojos bizarre adventure smut#jonathan jostar x reader#joseph jostar x reader#caeser zeppeli x reader#jotaro kujo x reader#noriaki kakyoin x reader#josuke higashikata x reader#okuyasu nijimura x reader#giorno giovanna x reader#guido mista x reader
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i don’t want to jump the gun, but i think hwang daseul might have just done it again. two episodes in to let free the curse of taekwondo and i am obsessed. more than obsessed. transfixed. this show feels special in a way hwang daseul’s touch only can give, and just using these two episodes to compare to her previous works, i love that i can already spot the continuity in the kinds of stories she tells, the messages she portrays and how she portrays them. she just knows how to let her characters exist in harmful and difficult places and show how their experiences affect them while also just showing them as normal human beings. it is so so easy to overdramatise these kinds of stories that have these difficult topics and have it be so surface level, but she has never done that. instead, she shows how those experiences shape a person and how they go about living in spite of them. all the way from where your eyes linger to now, she gives us characters that are wholly themselves and not just the traumas they have gone through and i just adore that. i can’t remember what i was talking about specifically, but i remember talking about this sentiment and how it actually helps to build empathy in an audience as opposed to just showing a difficult topic at the most surface level bc you think that makes it accessible and easier to understand and hence empathise with. i don’t think that ever works. it’s only when you do what hwang daseul does, when you give us characters we can get to know and fall in love with and care for that you help us to empathise with their experiences. it’s hard to understand the weight and the hardship of experiencing something traumatic, but when something bad happens to someone close to you, a family member or a friend, you understand and feel that pain astronomically more. that’s what hwang daseul manages to do. and more so, she makes you feel that while also seeing these people as people. you get to see them away from the hurt, you see them smile in moments of happiness and you see that too with people you’re close to, and you feel even more how special and important those moments of happiness are.
and that’s why, whenever hwang daseul is at the helm of something, i will be seated from start to end with endless boxes of tissues ready. i can’t wait to see what else this show has in store.
#let free the curse of taekwondo#oh I am so BACK#not to get too personal but god#i have been so tired bc of work#i have literally done so many long days and been so busy and so stressed#and I haven’t vibed with a bl for so long I mean I hear the sunspot was all I cared about for a bit#and im watching jack and joker now but I didn’t know if I had fallen out of love with bl#but what I think it is is i just needed something to really get my teeth into#fluff and silly fun is good I won’t ever knock it I love it I watch it#but when I have so little time I just feel myself getting impatient watching it sometimes bc I can’t sink my teeth into it#like I won’t be at work vibrating bc I know when I get home I’ll get to watch the next episode#this is what I needed#like this makes me feel alive like all my passion is invigorated again and I just feel the rants coming#and that just makes me so happy I can’t even say#I don’t wanna get emo but this show already makes me emo so#I just love being here#I love it
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I saw Dev Patel last night at an advance screening of Kinds of Kindess, and I told him I loved monkey man. I haven’t stopped thinking about it, like he’s so pretty in person
#He thanked me#AND LOOK AT ME WITH HIS BEAUTIFUL BROWN EYES#I was giggling and blushing all the way home#I lowkey felt bad too because I was STARING at him trying to do the math in my head#but I was like ‘no it’s can’t be’ BITCH IT IS!!#I’m still in disbelief tbh#I just HAD to tell him I loved monkey man I have no idea if I’d ever run into him again#this is going to get me through the next few months tbh#dev patel
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sexy himbo jock interpretations of James Tiberius Kirk are silly and do a disservice to the character for a lot of reasons, not least of which is that it fundamentally ignores all the times in canon when Kirk is faced with a scientific discovery or oddity and you can see the effort it takes for him not to clap and skip with excitement. like in ‘the devil in the dark’ when Spock posits that they might be dealing with a silicon based life form and McCoy’s like “but that’s impossible!” and Kirk literally crosses the room to flirt talk excitedly with Spock about the prospect and how it could work! and what it would mean!
What I’m saying is, Kirk’s gotta be smart and a huge dork because how else could he pull a bad autistic bitch like Spock?
#see also:#in arena when the aliens let the enterprise watch Kirk’s fight with the Gorn on that fuckass asteroid#and Spock is like listing the elements present that Kirk could use to build a weapon or make an explosion or whatever#but Kirk can’t hear him! because he’s on a fuckass asteroid#but he still turns around and does exactly what Spock was describing because he’s ALSO SMART AND CAPABLE AND GOOD AT SCIENCE#and like! you just know Spock was like….barely containing his lust in that moment#like your bestie your life partner your other half is out there showing why you’re soooo drift compatible#while also being good at science (your favorite thing)???#I wouldn’t be normal about it either#(I’m very clearly not normal about it anyway)#like you know they’re excitedly sharing science journal articles in their free time because they’re dweebs!! they’re dorks!!#the greatest trick this show pulls off is making you think Kirk and Spock are opposites#when in fact their whole thing is ‘how differently can two people be raised and move through life and still be the epitome of#whatever souls are made of his and mine are the same’#I’m sorry I had a smarter more coherent Star Trek post I was trying to write but I’m not feeling coherent at all#so you get this instead#Star Trek#star trek tos#tos#I’m still in season one so no one correct me if they swerve super hard and never let Kirk be smart ever again after that#let me have this
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IF LONG HAIR NOAH HAS NO FANS IM DEAD!!!!!!
(credit to the owners! thank you for blessing my eyes and hurting my feelings with how pretty he is!)
#long hair noah! long hair noah!#there’s something about men with long hair and tattoos#he’s literally the prettiest mother fucker I have ever seen#if he ever grows it out again I’m going to make it everyone’s problem#he can’t be big and buff AND have long hair#I’ll simply pass away!#he makes me dizzy 😵💫#WOOF! 😮💨#sweet boy noah#noah sebastian#bad omens#bad omens cult#it’s abbs!
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Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust.
#Do you ever think about the fact Ted held the love of his life in his arms while she died?#Do you ever think about the ash covering his hands? The dust stuck inbetween his fingernails? His tears making the ash stain his palms?#Heart in hand - interlocked with all his love between each finger - desperatly trying to not let it fade away?#Thinking about since the Old Testement ashes have been a symbol of repentance and penitence - a token of self-abhorrence and humiliation#Specifically ‘Wherefore I abhor myself and repent in dust and ashes’ (Job 42:6 KJV) and the entire concept of Ash Wednesday#I know that probably wasn’t the langs intention but as a ex-church kid I can’t stop projecting religious imagery into media I like#also is anyone surprised I drew this man with a clock and a halo again? I physically cannot stop myself from doing it#Anyway I’m not sorry for drawing this but I’ll go back to being a silly goofy guy with my fanart and tags….until next time :)#ted spankoffski#theodore spankoffski#JennyBear#Jenny nmt#Jenny starkid#god I feel so evil for tagging Jenny#starkid#starkid fanart#team starkid#starkid productions#time bastard#starkid time bastard#time bastard nightmare time#nightmare time#starkid nightmare time#hatchetfield nightmare time#nmt#hatchetfield#hatchetverse#hatchetfield universe#fanart#my art
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romeo!! or rock….? idk he’s the ds guy. y’know
#my art#rock tumbling (sos)#romeo (ds)#bokumono#trying to make the way i draw romeo distinct from rock#romeo is more dog coded than rock#(dog ball antics)#hence he is softer#(i choose to believe this guy can’t surf even though leona has dialogue saying she wants to watch him surf)#he hangs around in the lobby to greet customers while louis is in the kitchen… it’s not labor….#i bet he’s just helping so he can hit on everyone who arrives from mineral town…#harvest moon#harvest moon ds#story of seasons#hmds cute#harvest moon ds cute#he still goes in the rock collection#here’s hoping for a ds remake that gives the characters more distinctions#romeo’s hair is long in the back and his necklace has a slightly different design#those are the only things that i can confidently say aren’t just due to the ds having a limited palette#rock (ds)#also subconsciously shells fanfic snuck into this drawing i think#by durotoswrites. very good fanfic#‘never coloring another fucking sketchbook scribble using the markup tool ever again’ turns out to be a bald faced lie#cora just use ibis or something photos app keeps crashing#no#sorry all ds brainrot lately (brain on fire simulator)#brainrockt….#i tried to capture the vacancy behind his eyes. there’s nothing there#i’m sorry the saturation on my phone was goofed. i’m sorry everyone’s retinas
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hey! sometimes it’s not necessary to share your opinion <3
#and especially not if it’s insulting anyone’s appearance#i’m so sick of seeing people say that finn had a “downgrade”#SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP#“well he’ll probably never see it”#does that matter????#beauty is subjective but that does not give you any right to call anyone ugly#saying that they’ve gotten progressively “uglier” as the years go by#because you know how actually fucked up that is#and this goes for noah too. do i need to say it again? i will.#“well he’s probably not going to see it”#IT DOESNT MATTER. HE MIGHT.#and with everything he’s going through lately seeing so much of the fandom insulting his appearance too#well#i know that would hurt#and using “they’re so ugly” as a reason to why you want mileven endgame#nobody actually gives a fuck. i am so serious#it is disgusting how often this happens#“i don’t like them as people anyway”#you don’t have to but GOD you don’t need to insult their appearance repeatedly#no one should ever have to go online and be judged about things they can’t control by fans of the show they’re in#SO STOP DOING IT.#finn wolfhard#noah schnapp#byler#stranger things#stranger things 5#and this is such a problem#for some reason when someone become famous apparently now it’s ok to insult everything about them#well it’s not. so stop.#hellinhawkins
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I made my post about Dean Highbottom and then as I was writing my tags realised that his Hunger Games counterpart is Haymitch. and now my head is in my hands and I don’t think I’ll ever recover
#IM GOING TO CRY. I am part of the system I never wanted anything to do with it#I killed so many people without laying a hand on them. I never ever asked for this. I tried to say no. my hands are still bloody.#both turned to drugs to cope. both had a mentee who reminded them of someone they hated so much#(snow reminded the dean of his old friend. katniss reminded haymitch of himself)#both knew exactly how the games worked and all of its consequences because one made it and the other lived it#both lived in the shadows of the past and never really got out from it#but in the end one of them chose to be cruel to the children who they were asked to mentor#and the other loved even when it was killing him#god. twenty three years and they never managed to drown the fire out of him. his heart broke again and again#but he held onto those shards even as they made his hands bleed. and then one day two children appeared and pieced it back together#and some of it was missing and always would be. you can’t undo twenty three years of alcoholism and pain and grief and self loathing#but a lot of it was still there. far more than he ever even believed could have survived#Haymitch I love youuuuuuuuu I will always love you#and Dean Highbottom you were kinda cringe and lame. guynobody ass bitch. do better#haymitch abernathy#dean highbottom#thg#the hunger games#a ballad of songbirds and snakes#abosas
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#my little brother is engaged :/#don’t know if any of you remember me posting about the whole situation like 8 months ago but i feel soo weird#and sad because i want to b happy for him but he’s six yrs older than her and she’s 19..#or i guess twenty now maybe whatever i feel so aggh. and he moved to a different country so i just feel like i’m never gonna see him again#like i knew this was coming they’re both super religious so i was like yeah they’re going to want to get married and have kids fast but.#it just feels crazy. i know that’s selfish but i have such a bad gut feeling about it that i can’t shake#but i can’t do anything about it so. idk. i just feel so lonely when things like this happen because i don't have anyone outside of the#family bubble to talk to about it. and obviously everyone else is like super happy for them. and it's not that i don't like her! i just#don't really? know her? at all which feels weird because we are a very close sibling group and i feel like i know & get on with my other#siblings' partners. i think it's partly like i just don't ever hang around people who are under twenty so she feels really young to me#which isn't her fault obviously but. do feel kind of scared for her getting married at twenty so she can start having babies.... idk idk#and obviously on top of that it's my younger brother so it does feel a little salt in the wound that he's moving on with his life and i am#counting it a win these days if i don't want to kms every three minutes#god it just sucks lol and i can't talk about it 2 anyone so i am venting here
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